ahahha, darling, your why-am-i-so-stupid emo is so hilarious! but really, don't sprain yourself.
one of the most annoying things about TOS slash fanon to me are the conceits that:
1. spock doesn't really have emotions. (how odd how he smiles. and frowns. and laughs. and gets revenge.) 2. spock has never actually felt his emotions before the slash story is set. (how odd how he smiles and jokes. and ditto the other stuff.) 3. spock does have emotions, but mccoy and/or kirk don't realise that he does, so you have conversations where they're like "omg! well you shouldn't have said you didn't have them then if you really did! it's almost like we're up against a cultural difference or something!" (how odd that we have conversations in canon, then, when they're like "are you actually trying to tell me that you didn't panic and respond emotionally" and "spock, you're so full of shit, you were about to make out with him right here in sickbay.")
if you belong to the very!stubbornly!socialconstructivist!school, i guess you would have to contend that how you describe emotions and your value-judgments about them would affect how you experience them. quite stubbornly, too. (i mean, god knows if you're going to say there isn't any actual reality...) and if you don't belong to that school, you know, it's probably more of a well, sure, obviously it affects them some, cause you know, the placebo effect, and zomg positive thinking helps cancer. and so on. and then there's this: if you think you're experiencing someting different inside your head all of a sudden, it's probably going to feel different, unless it's something like an icepick being driven into your temple.
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one of the most annoying things about TOS slash fanon to me are the conceits that:
1. spock doesn't really have emotions. (how odd how he smiles. and frowns. and laughs. and gets revenge.)
2. spock has never actually felt his emotions before the slash story is set. (how odd how he smiles and jokes. and ditto the other stuff.)
3. spock does have emotions, but mccoy and/or kirk don't realise that he does, so you have conversations where they're like "omg! well you shouldn't have said you didn't have them then if you really did! it's almost like we're up against a cultural difference or something!" (how odd that we have conversations in canon, then, when they're like "are you actually trying to tell me that you didn't panic and respond emotionally" and "spock, you're so full of shit, you were about to make out with him right here in sickbay.")
if you belong to the very!stubbornly!socialconstructivist!school, i guess you would have to contend that how you describe emotions and your value-judgments about them would affect how you experience them. quite stubbornly, too. (i mean, god knows if you're going to say there isn't any actual reality...) and if you don't belong to that school, you know, it's probably more of a well, sure, obviously it affects them some, cause you know, the placebo effect, and zomg positive thinking helps cancer. and so on. and then there's this: if you think you're experiencing someting different inside your head all of a sudden, it's probably going to feel different, unless it's something like an icepick being driven into your temple.