no! we're talking about a female person here, who is def. not real and def. doesn't know. shudder. and to make it worse, i have not really ever had a crush on a female person before--okay, i have, but not one with this strength. with a friend it's easy to sublimate, and when it's not, it's ignorable... for random acquaintances, that is... i've never had a crush on other than a real person at all! *whine*

i'm really confused. and upset. about this. yeah. and i don't seem to be stopping. i am trying.

<--has a weakness for stubble, but not quite that much of one.