nooo don't say spamming! i would love to chat with you about it! i think only aja even comes close to my level of wanting to talk about it, but i'm not sure how much is her just humouring me - she doesn't get nearly as enthusiastic about her secondary pairings, at least not for very long.
i'm right with you on the confusingness of these lyrics! 'i hope it isn't about kirihara' was the first thing i thought too, after the first two read-throughs where i was just too excited to think anything at all. aja suggests that it's all about inui/yanagi and not a third person, though, and i think she's right on some more re-readings.
in fact i agree with you on practically every point. inui's obsession is so clear from canon - but because of the seigaku pov thing, we don't really know how yanagi feels, aside from how he felt when he was a child, and his love there (and his consciousness of it, i think) is very clear. but i want to see their ongoing relationship as a two-sided obsession. i am going to take this song as permission to take that intepretation as canon now, thankyouverymuch. :)
it's hard to separate timelines since any song about them practically has to be both about the past and about today. but i think the narration is in the present - i mean, it does kind of seem like the 'now' of the song is lying in bed somewhere, or someplace else where he can hold someone (inui) close and contemplate the afterglow. of course it could be a figurative holding, or holding hands, so it doesn't have to be now, but the words and gestures that still haunt him - those are probably the events from when they were children still haunting him now. that line is so close to the one about memories still twining around his heart that i think it's meant to refer to events in the past from the pov of the narration.
it's almost heart-breaking, but also really heart-warming, how difficult it seems to be for renji - his struggle with expressing what he feels, his ambivalent (and unreliable-narrator-like) behaviour what with repudiating love and then talking about it as a given in the same song. even his delivery speaks to me of that, the way he over-enunciates everything, although that could just be my wishful thinking.
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i'm right with you on the confusingness of these lyrics! 'i hope it isn't about kirihara' was the first thing i thought too, after the first two read-throughs where i was just too excited to think anything at all. aja suggests that it's all about inui/yanagi and not a third person, though, and i think she's right on some more re-readings.
in fact i agree with you on practically every point. inui's obsession is so clear from canon - but because of the seigaku pov thing, we don't really know how yanagi feels, aside from how he felt when he was a child, and his love there (and his consciousness of it, i think) is very clear. but i want to see their ongoing relationship as a two-sided obsession. i am going to take this song as permission to take that intepretation as canon now, thankyouverymuch. :)
it's hard to separate timelines since any song about them practically has to be both about the past and about today. but i think the narration is in the present - i mean, it does kind of seem like the 'now' of the song is lying in bed somewhere, or someplace else where he can hold someone (inui) close and contemplate the afterglow. of course it could be a figurative holding, or holding hands, so it doesn't have to be now, but the words and gestures that still haunt him - those are probably the events from when they were children still haunting him now. that line is so close to the one about memories still twining around his heart that i think it's meant to refer to events in the past from the pov of the narration.
it's almost heart-breaking, but also really heart-warming, how difficult it seems to be for renji - his struggle with expressing what he feels, his ambivalent (and unreliable-narrator-like) behaviour what with repudiating love and then talking about it as a given in the same song. even his delivery speaks to me of that, the way he over-enunciates everything, although that could just be my wishful thinking.