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i don't know about this word 'hate.'
how humiliating is it to have to admit that one's s.o. was wiser than one in some disagreement over with weeks ago? but i can't sustain hate or even anger indefinitely. i'm feeling mellow and sort of indifferent. everyone just carry on, i'm cool. msa said something about feel free to hate her and i was all, 'oh, i don't hate her,' and then remembered that hating her is on my interests list. hum.
well, it's not EXACTLY the same thing. the one is an emotion, the other a political statement.
not that that's not fucked too.
so anyway: hate is one thing and distaste is really another. hate just... it's an energetic sort of emotion. implies a lot of investment, too, and how lame is it to continually *keep* investing energy in something that makes you feel *bad* in the end?
darn.
well, anyway. so, no more hating. although i'm not changing my interests list unless i still have this sort of thought tomorrow.
well, it's not EXACTLY the same thing. the one is an emotion, the other a political statement.
not that that's not fucked too.
so anyway: hate is one thing and distaste is really another. hate just... it's an energetic sort of emotion. implies a lot of investment, too, and how lame is it to continually *keep* investing energy in something that makes you feel *bad* in the end?
darn.
well, anyway. so, no more hating. although i'm not changing my interests list unless i still have this sort of thought tomorrow.