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[cimorene]

have been unreasoningly depressed for most of the afternoon, excepting some chatting, which brings out my playful side. i guess. i now almost want to cry and have very little idea why. i certainly don't have pms. one of those moods where nearly everything in creation is annoying and grating and i just want to be alone, but mom offered to call gateway tech support for me and take me shopping tomorrow, so i can't go hide at the housesitting house and watch movies.

soon, soon, i promise myself.

you know, depression is contagious? my mom and dad being short-tempered, even or especially if not at me, makes me want to curl up and whimper. wax_jism's moods terrify me. i got hollsk's pictures, finally, but she's in nova scotia with no internet; i can't communicate with steve, jennifer, etc, and i haven't seen girlinthetree or kmazzy for, like, a week, even though both of them got im recently. i am stuck on a story, too. only a paragraph in the last three weeks. *fretfretfret*


slept the afternoon away, had reheated rice with the consistency of plastic and gross chicken for dinner, raged at the vagaries of dell and compaq after dinner. the electric windows in my car are shorting out and i'm out of sundry toiletries but mom won't take me to the store tonight. my dog keeps making messes, and the medicine didn't make his back stop itching.

i don't like working, either. it's not late enough to go to bed, and i may have gorged myself on smallville and due south yesterday past the point of reading any today. gaaaaaah.

Comments

[buffett.livejournal.com]

pat!

Depression IS contagious. they say ("they" being psychiatrists) that one of the best ways to diagnose depression is to notice whether talking to the person starts to make you feel sad.

so pat! patpatpat. Crumpet for you.

[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

awwww cim-babe!
if i hadn't been at a wedding last night i would have chatted to you for hours, my love.

we will find some time soon, i promise.
*kisses*