cimorene: Photo of a woman in a white dress walking away next to a massive window with ornate gothic carved wooden embellishment (northanger abbey)
Probably nobody left in fandom remembers that I started writing a bandom story in which Gerard Way was a necromancer in uhhhhh, 2008? (There are children born in that year coming to work with me this summer, getting paid money, and I have to come to work an hour early to supervise them in their first summer jobs.)

The crash of the bandom bubble hit this story half-finished, but over the years I've often thought about writing the second half of it, which I have a skeletal outline of, with or without filing off the serial numbers (at one point in there I thought I would HAVE to change the names, even if I didn't try to sell it to one of those gay romance places, simply because nobody would care to read bandom fic anymore at that point. This has changed somewhat, but given how long dead the fandom is, idk, it might still be worth my time to change the names, although I did have a lot of trouble and eventually gave up in the time when I was trying to pick appropriate alternate names.)

At some point in my mental journey, I arrived at learning more about necromancy. It's not that I lack a mental image of how necromancy or magic works in this fictional world, and more that I was looking for some missing tiny bit of je ne sais quoi in order to more firmly outline the still skeletally-outlined final conflict. I eventually got around, a few years ago, to trying to learn a bit more about necromancy, and I picked up a few tantalizing tidbits from the British Museum's expert on ancient Sumeria, who has several incredibly entertaining videos on their channel on YouTube. It felt like it wasn't quite enough though.

So the last time - and now we're at a few months ago - that I thought about it, I thought I would try to learn more about religion and mythology in ancient Sumeria, because after all, even if it doesn't give me any ideas, it's definitely going to be fascinating. Alternately about magic in the rest of the ancient near east, I guess.

Having found a YouTube channel a few months ago called Esoterica, I thought, "This seems promising!" The topics lean heavily on the ancient and medieval history of magic and witchcraft, and in fact, I did find several videos about magic in ancient Sumeria and Babylon. I quickly got sidetracked, though. The blurb says the channel is about "alchemy, magic, Kabbalah, mysticism, hermetic philosophy, theosophy, the occult and more", and it's a gentle, stereotypically nebbishy [American] Jewish philosophy professor complete with a giant beard like my dad's, about my age, but with an astoundingly encylopedic knowledge of, and apparently consuming fannish interest in, all these topics. I don't have any special interest in any of these things directly - I am interested in magic mainly as fiction, and as it touches on the history of religion; I love folklore and mythology, but I'm not actually especially drawn to paganism or mysticism - but they are all fully within the orbit of things that are interesting to me, enough to make most of the things he talks about fun to listen to, even though I'm about 90% guaranteed not interested in looking up the academic resources he cites for the use of people who are in the fandom with him. I've watched a huge number of these well-written and soothingly-narrated videos now and learned a lot of facts about various things like ancient judaism and christianity and medieval western ritual magic, and even a bit more about ghosts in Sumeria and Babylon, but not really much more about necromancy, except that the term was almost exclusively used in the middle ages and early modern period to refer to ritual magic calling on demons, as opposed to the dead. It's definitely the dead in my story, though, so I guess my original goal remains unfulfilled.

And I will actually probably have to use some of his academic sources if I want to learn more about Sumerian ghosts. I might start with some slightly more recent ones, I suppose, if only because they may be better documented.
cimorene: A small bronze table lamp with triple-layered orange glass shades (stylish)
I've been thinking more in the last few years that I'd like to write a 1920s-30s murder mystery.

On the other hand, I haven't finished many novel-length stories over the years, and I've never tried a mystery at all. And also the last time I wrote regularly was 2016.

The puzzle structure of murder mysteries means they have a different set of planning and pre-writing requirements, and that's a bit intimidating...
cimorene: two men in light linen three-piece suits and straw hats peering over a wrought iron railing (poirot)
I can still sign up, though. My nominating Commedia dell'arte was probably not going to produce any results anyway. Still, I hate when I forget to get around to something because I keep remembering it constantly at the wrong time as opposed to because I completely forgot it existed.
cimorene: The words "You're doing amazing sweetie" hand lettered in medieval-reminiscent style (you're doing amazing sweetie)
Nice that Yuletide is open for nominations! I've been looking forward to that.

It's finally my opportunity to nominate Harlequin/Pierrot from Commedia dell'arte!

It probably won't make it since nobody else but me has ever shown an interest in it that I can find - except that one fanartist on Tumblr -, but I'm sure there are people who know more about it than me too. And it's always nice to sign up for a few old standby fandoms too. It seems like in recent years Yuletide is the only time I really write anything; otherwise there's a lot of fannish interests I have no interest in writing and fandoms I like enough to write that don't have a fandom presence, so it seems pointless. (There's writing for yourself and writing for yourself!)

The plumber said he'd come do the radiators next week, so I now expect him (although I would not be surprised if he just didn't show up, exactly, but I do expect him to actually come, so that's nice) to fix the radiators! Or at least to start to. And our new sofa should be delivered and our old sofa abstracted tomorrow!
cimorene: closeup of a large book held in a woman's hands as she flips through it (reading)
Given the commonness of this whole trope where the narrator, and sometimes everyone else except one intelligent character, is so clueless that they are continually surprised by everything that happens in the most obnoxious way while the writer ensures that the reader is anything but surprised...

... It's just occurred to me, for the first time, that it's got to be knowingly and deliberately employed by the authors. Does that mean people like it? Are there readers who regard it as a cherished and even favorite device? Does it come off as funny rather then agonizing, sort of like those people who like secondhand embarrassment humor?
cimorene: closeup of a large book held in a woman's hands as she flips through it (reading)
I've been reading one of those fascinating writers who seem to have a great deal of talent and no self-discipline.

By that I mean they're writing only for pleasure, yes, but that doesn't indicate lack of self-discipline in itself because in principle writing just to please yourself is a very good thing; but sometimes I just think the author HAS to be having a great time since everything is PAINFULLY obviously driven by wish fulfillment rather than taste, logic or characterization. In spite of obvious talent and skill at writing itself, I mean, where the surface level of writing is good or even great, things like narration and dialogue: this is a writer who could produce stuff I'd rate 110% if they were given a detailed plot outline by someone better at plots than they are and then edited by a sufficiently harsh beta.

As a reader, I... don't really enjoy reading about how all my favorite characters from disparate corners of canon, no matter how remote and unlikely, meet and become the best friends ever and subsequently triumph over every single character I've ever disliked through various embarrassments and humiliations while the world in general agrees explicitly how great my faves are and how pathetic their enemies. I did briefly write a few things like that when I was ten or twelve, and I read the slightly more refined wish fulfillment/Chosen One genre avidly a bit longer than that (Mercedes Lackey mostly), but... for my present enjoyment things would have fewer unpleasant people popping out to be vanquished and the skill and renown of the protagonist wouldn't be continuously increasing so regularly and explicitly. Partly it's just that it's so blatant that it's embarrassing to read and strains suspension of disbelief because I keep noticing the characterization being bent out of shape (hence my reference to the 'slightly more refined' version, ie wish fulfillment that is all about the Chosen One being showered with praise and recognition but without straining credulity as obviously and usually, when published as books like Harry Potter or the Vorkosigan books, broken up with more challenges and problems). But it also just leaves me a bit cold in this form because it's not my particular narrative kink, as it were.

I suppose this kind of wish fulfillment reading must feel for some people like the most engaging and soothing and comforting thing to read ever, so... then the question becomes, what DO I want for my favorite characters?

It isn't something I'd given a lot of thought to over time, but fortuitously, just a couple of weeks ago [personal profile] yvannairie recommended me this gen Transformers series, Xenoethnography by [archiveofourown.org profile] Therrae. And this is pretty much that ideal made real. In fact, I don't have a strong preference for gen, but this is such great gen for such a long time that it's an exemplary opportunity to examine the best stuff that can happen to a beloved protagonist personally as opposed to interpersonally: Therrae's OC social scientist is useful, in fact, crucial for her expertise, and she is introduced to the community of extraterrestrials living in secret and helps them and others in important ways while constantly learning more about their alien culture and psychology and gradually getting to know a wide variety of different characters. (It's Transformers fic, which is hilarious because Transformers, so the aliens are sentient robots, but the genre and register is very classic [second wave or later] science fiction.)

Put like this, the description also explains why I love CJ Cherry's Foreigner series, which was my favorite in high school (I haven't read the last few books mostly because it's so long now that trying to reread it all to remind myself what happened can take months and months each time and I keep getting distracted. I probably need all of them as ebooks in order to manage). But this learning and confidently using extant expertise also pinpoints some of the stuff we in fandom often loved about, say, SGA fic (applying to Rodney but also to John), and also to part of what really entices me about my current favorite book series, Catriona McPherson's 1920s Dandy Gilver mysteries. The found family and alien culture window character applies to popular portrayals of Stiles in Teen Wolf (although this dynamic quickly got overrun with the "pack mom" fanon, which felt weird and kinky for me and kept grossing me out to the point of becoming a pet peeve) and to the Nero Wolfe mysteries that I devoured last year at [personal profile] princessofgeeks's recommendation.
cimorene: Pixel art of a bright apple green art deco tablet radio with elaborate ivory fretwork (is this thing on?)
I've reached the second to last Nero Wolfe book and stalled halfway through because I'm reluctant to finish all of them and not have any left. This isn't unprecedented... I've never watched or read the last Poirot story either, and it took me several years after acquiring the box sets to watch the last few eps of Due South I hadn't seen from old VHS and of TOS that I didn't remember from tv reruns. (I also haven't watched season 3 of Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries, but that's not quite the same because the quality was already dipping in season 2 because they ran out of finished novels to base them on. But not unrelated.)

It's harder with reading though, especially because I have made notes on them and have a list of them and they're all here on my phone. So I'm sure I will finish them - probably this week.

I also reached the point where my irritation at combing through the unfiltered pairing tag for new Good Omens works eclipsed the positive value of the increasingly rare fic I wanted to bookmark, so I removed the bookmark from my mobile browser shortcuts. In the period where the speed of good Good Omens fic was slowing down I also read a whole bunch of It 2 Eddie/Richie fixits (without watching It part 2 and without reading It!) and a whole bunch of The Witcher fic, but I got a bit tired of that too. What fanfic, then, am I reading now?

I'm reading Highlander fic. Why not! It's probably been ten years since I've read very much of that at a time...

Speaking of Old Fic, around the time I initially got into Highlander, when I was part of a group watching episodes of it from a friend's box set in 2005-6, I was also writing Gary Oldman/Tim Roth slash with my pal Lilah. I think we were initially inspired by Rosencrantz & Guildenstern Are Dead, but then there was that series of photographs with the two of them writing messages to each other on their faces.

There was a livejournal community, but it didn't have much activity aside from us. There was one other person who wrote a couple of ficlets, all short, but I didn't know them very well; and at the time I think that was all of the pairing in existence. Lilah and I were working on different fics in the pairing and we encouraged one another. I think I finished three, and she finished one or two, and we both had more WIPs that we never finished, and then I also wrote a story based on Meantime, the Mike Leigh-directed tv movie in which the two of them first costarred in 1983. That semester I was taking an intensive Swedish class that took five hours a day and only one other course, and I had a lot of free time and wrote a great deal of this stuff longhand at the university (that was before I learned to knit or crochet). The result was an extraordinarily high wordcount in a relatively short period of time, with the additional feature that very few people besides the two of us had written any of it. I guess maybe that changed over time? I haven't checked, but both of us have been getting a minor flood of new kudos on the stories in question for weeks now - before the quarantine hit Finland or Holland, at any rate. Evidently someone mentioned them somewhere, but why? Isn't the last time they had anything to do with each other like... approaching 30 years ago now? I have gotten one solitary comment out of the kudos flood and am tempted to ask them, but it feels a bit rude...
cimorene: painting of two women in Regency gowns drinking tea (tea)
I've been trying to think of an idea that would support a whole plot for another Singin' in the Rain fic since 2015, but last night I thought of one at midnight, when I had been on the verge of falling asleep. Predictably it's one that would require me to do several months' reading, though, so I'll set that aside for now and focus on making candy to take to Wax's aunt's xmas eve dinner tomorrow.
cimorene: Pixel art of a bright apple green art deco tablet radio with elaborate ivory fretwork (is this thing on?)
I knew a feral fan who grew up fanatic about Star Wars and had absorbed the idea from pop culture that Star Wars and Star Trek were diametrically opposed factions locked in bitter ideological feud (not knowing anything about Star Trek). She wasn't even aware of fandom; her fannish model was just consuming canon repeatedly and discussing it opportunistically, not seeking out other fans or anything.

So as a result of this, she got very upset when I talked about being a lifelong fan of Star Trek, and then failed to absorb my statements that I liked Star Wars and had dabbled in Star Wars fandom, instead assuming that as a member of Team Star Trek I was her Enemy (at least on this subject). So for some time, any time I attempted to say anything about Star Wars in her presence, she would freak out and be like "Shh! Silence, foul deceiver! I don't want to hear your enemy propaganda!"

The first few times I sort of assumed she was joking; a bit later I tended to eyeroll and change the subject or move on (easy to do in a working environment); eventually I realized the mistaken belief and managed to interrogate it out of her (although she didn't seem to know why she thought that when I asked. Could it be Big Bang Theory? She said she hated it, but she betrayed more familiarity with it than can be healthy). I blew her mind once by explaining my history with Star Wars fannishness and then blew it again by explaining that this is far from unusual and that I'd never encountered the serious blood feud mentality she believed in during my childhood at science fiction conventions or in media fandom.

(Of course, I know the idea of this feud is out there, but I've only encountered it in a joking tone, and I've known many fans of both and can't recall a single example in my personal experience of someone avowing dislike of the other. I don't doubt that people with this view exist, probably wherever the racist and misogynist harrassers came from after The Last Jedi. Maybe you could track them down at Star Trek-only conventions, which I've never been to. But regardless, they are definitely not a significant, let alone dominant, demographic in general fannish or 'geek culture' space.)

I'm going somewhere with this.

Wouldn't it be great to have a newly-turned vampire or werewolf with this idea who discovers their friend is the other sort of Creature of the Night and has the same reaction with the misconception being drawn out for humor before they eventually find out that vampires and werewolves mostly coexist peacefully in these parts, with the exception of a lot of jokes at the others' expense, and that, like, vampire-werewolf nightclubs and biker gangs are de rigeur? I'm picturing somebody saying, "Some of my best friends are werewolves!"
cimorene: closeup of Jeremy Brett as Holmes raising his eyebrows from behind a cup of steaming tea (eyebrows)
You really should check the names of garments and especially check what kind of underwear people were wearing whenever writing historical fiction, even if you think it's well within the era of modern clothing.

(You could be surprised all the way up to the 1960s! The modern bra - with cups - didn't really come into existence until the 1930s, although brassieres were first sold in the late 1800s; and elasticated fabrics first appeared in the 1930s, but they weren't like modern stretch fabric. Meanwhile, just because a corset was involved doesn't mean the standard pop culture perception of undergarments that went with it is correct. There was a vast difference between the early 17th century and the early 20th century, and the early 1800s were often uncorseted or corseted only minimally. On the other hand, the Victorian era, which may seem the most familiar to many people because of its frequent appearances in pop culture texts, demonstrably involved about twice as many garments and undergarments as many, including those educated by popular movies and television, are aware.)

Anyway, I've just discovered that two errors in historical undergarments is my limit before flinging my phone down in exasperation, and even though in this fanfiction it would be an easy fix, I don't know that I'll be sanguine enough to compose a polite, casual, and friendly comment on the subject any time soon.

Imagine being easily able to imagine how it feels to not care about the minute details of historical costume! I can't. I mean... I've tried. I've gotten as far as logically understanding that people don't, but there's a huge emotional gap. The narrative just won't hold together. It's essentially a complete cipher to me.
cimorene: Black and white image of a woman in a long pale gown and flower crown with loose dark hair, silhouetted against a black background (goth)
The farmhouse itself no longer looked like a beast about to spring. (Not that it ever had, to her, for she was not in the habit of thinking that things looked exactly like other things which were as different from them in appearance as it was possible to be.)


—Stella Gibbons, Cold Comfort Farm
cimorene: painting of a glowering woman pouring a thin stream of glowing green liquid from an enormous bowl (misanthropy)
Sometimes writing is more about the world building than the plot; sometimes it's basically all about the world building at the expense of plot, either because the author's not good at action or just doesn't care as much about it. And sometimes that's okay with me if the world building is more interesting (or is interesting enough to make up for plot problems, I should say).

In a book I was just reading the absence of plot included:

  • A lot of things happened one after the other, but without significant causal relationships.


  • Frequently there was no sense of real agency associated with these events - like the type of newspaper writing that elides responsibility and agency through a variety of linguistic acrobatics that are widely and incorrectly labeled by many people as "passive voice" although that isn't what passive voice actually means. People made choices but the ones the narrative spent time on weren't the ones which were significant to the course of events.


  • A lot of new information was presented like a twist or revelation, but most of these didn't pay off or go anywhere or tie into anything.


  • Revelations eg suddenly unveiling the motivation or unmasking the secret identity of characters other than the protagonist were presented as if to make things more meaningful or resolved when in fact these revelations had no particular bearing on the outcomes. They were also presented only at the end even though the protagonist who was narrating had figured them out much earlier, with the clues that led to the protagonist's conclusions not being revealed to the reader (a frequent practice of Sherlock Holmes or Hercule Poirot, but they weren't the narrators of their own stories. An omission like this on the part of a narrator who is omitting relevant facts artificially to increase tension is gimmicky).


  • Characters were introduced and described but relationships formed almost entirely offscreen, without real character development being seen and without the work of creating their relationships with the protagonist being done. They simply appear in an introduction scene and perhaps exchange some words, get some vague exposition, and then proceed to appear as very close friends or as enemies without any work being shown.


The reason I say that in this book the author cared about world building at the expense of plot was that most of that page real estate was spent on exposition and description instead, on all sorts of scales. It reminded me of one of those elaborate miniature setups, like model railways or people who build miniature rooms and scenes and villages, or the settings of more elaborate role playing games in the hands of enthusiastic dungeon masters. (Of course it's possible for a story to have flaws like the above or otherwise a bad or missing plot without this focus on world building.)

But what I started thinking at about the 30% mark in this fantasy novel was:

If you're going to put that much effort into world building, you should do it right.



I mean at least that way if I'm reading a book that's essentially just world building the reader could then be spending that time enjoying the world building.

It should make sense. Practical questions don't have to be your sole concern, but if you're giving practical details they shouldn't appear to glaringly contradict other practical details. Basically, there should be... logic. Also it's kind of odd to be spending 80% of your time and effort with exposition that is often needlessly detailed without apparent cause and then to also just be going super vague and skimming over other details when they should have appeared on the page.

I have another entire rant I could make about the use of made-up language bits (as opposed to more complete and systematic constructed languages) in a lot of generic-level high fantasy, which is typically annoying, and then how much worse than that this book was while not improving on it in any respect, but in retrospect that isn't really relevant to the point (except inasmuch as it's a further example of the world building not being done with sufficient work/care and its corresponding lack of logic).
cimorene: minimal cartoon stick figure on the phone to the Ikea store, smiling in relief (call ikea)
I just had a pretty surreal experience.

About 10 years ago, in a long-abandoned fandom, I had one of those ideas that you talk about in chat without meaning to write because it seems unmanageable for some reason, like maybe too long or too much work or too angsty, and in this case, it was because I had a vision of a 20-year-long plot arc but with a giant puzzle piece missing from the middle. I had a vague sense that the answer should be obvious to me, that it was staring me in the face somehow or I was looking at it upside down, but the whole idea was silly anyway. However, I was easily persuaded to write a few individual pieces from it as vignettes (oh, and apparently the last bit was only 7 years ago).

I hadn't given the story any thought in years, and I was never particularly stressed about figuring it out, but just now I was reading something by somebody else in a completely different fandom and I suddenly looked up like my ears were ringing, and then, prompted by an abstruse connection between the reading material and a couple of conversations I had last week with [personal profile] perhael about yet a third fandom, I suddenly knew what the missing piece was.

In fact it seems both laughably obvious and inevitable, like I can't believe I didn't figure it out before, like I had a key in a lock upside down. I haven't even heard from the friend I was writing it for in years, I think...

I hope my brain hasn't been wasting resources running that process in the background all this time.
cimorene: cartoony drawing of a woman's head in profile giving dubious side-eye (helen kane)
For most of the month of November (though not since) I managed to write almost every night, and I created a cozy little routine of fixing cocoa with amaretto in it and taking the laptop into the library with me and making a cocoon of blankets on the sofa there, where it's cooler than the rest of the flat and very dark and quiet. It's like being in a bubble, which is necessary because otherwise I am too easily distracted.

But writing only late at night, after putting the bunnies to bed and feeding the cats, doesn't leave that much time for it, because I can't easily stay up half the night anymore. I've been meaning to try to transfer this routine to the daytime, but that feeling is elusive. The library's just as cool and quiet, but when there's sunlight - which okay, is only between 9 am and 3 pm or something like that, but still most of the day - it doesn't feel cocoony at all, because there's stuff in my peripheral vision. (It would probably be soothing to write inside a pod, but unfortunately I don't have one.) Probably if I hadn't gone so long with writer's block I would not struggle so much with distraction, but the only way to fix that is to make new routines...
cimorene: cartoony drawing of a woman's head in profile giving dubious side-eye (love)
Children produce a lot of art and writing and for the most part I'm not too sad about things lost to the sands of time, but I do wish I had the full-length parody of The Raven I wrote at age 13 about a seagull that steals someone's book while they're reading on the beach.
cimorene: painting of a glowering woman pouring a thin stream of glowing green liquid from an enormous bowl (misanthropy)
It's quite poignant to have 100 works uploaded to AO3 (although honestly, some of them are just polished comment- and chatfics that don't really belong there, but it seems even sillier to take them down now they've already been there for a while) and not have written anything in 4 years except Yuletide.

When I was a teenager, I stayed up all night writing RPF more times than I stayed up all night writing essays.

At this point writing 200 words of fiction in a day, like I did yesterday, is an infinite improvement over every day since last Yuletide deadline, but my main reaction is still "This is nothing compared to my high point in 2007-8 when 6000 words a day wasn't unusual."

I think there's a little thread of feeling chuffed under there, but it's hard to feel it.

The Itch

5 Oct 2016 01:35 pm
cimorene: cartoony drawing of a woman's head in profile giving dubious side-eye (sleek & stylish)
I remember reading one time that they mapped the part of your brain that makes you want to write and it's completely independent from the bits in charge of actually writing, which explains neatly why adjusting my medication dose seems to have suddenly made me want to write something so much it's kind of like my brain is itching, even though when the feeling started, I didn't have any ideas that were approaching ready to be started.

Since then I've managed to assemble most of the concept for one and could nearly start writing, once I make a few more decisions like POV and time frame, thanks to [personal profile] lately and [profile] sandwich_armada's stints as encouraging sounding boards, [personal profile] waxjism researching a bunch of things about hockey that she didn't already know (which is really remarkable given how much trivia she sucks up on a daily basis), and [personal profile] perhael's patience in listening to several full elevator pitches about Sidney Crosby's ass even though she feels about sports like I did a couple of years ago and is full-time in Jrock fandom these days.

I went to look at the Yuletide signups, but after poking around a bit I wasn't that confident about enough fandoms to offer so decided to try to write some treats once Yuletide Madness opens instead. I guess we'll see. Trying to take a break from a WIP for Yuletide and then come back to it has historically gone awry for me in the past. You can't always find the groove again.
cimorene: cartoony drawing of a woman's head in profile giving dubious side-eye (interrupted)
It's the Yuletide reveal!
Never Let No One Man Worry Your Mind (5538 words) by cimorene
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Singin' in the Rain (1952)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Cosmo Brown & Don Lockwood, Cosmo Brown/Other(s)
Characters: Cosmo Brown, Don Lockwood
Additional Tags: Queer Gen, Queer History, vaudeville, Chicago, Friendship, Drag Queens, Queer Themes, Mistaken for Being in a Relationship, Queer Culture
Summary:

"Cos! Thank God you're alive, I thought my double act was about to become a single," Don said. "Where have you been?"


"In jail," Cosmo whispered back, "Happy birthday."


Don clapped him on the shoulder. "Thanks; you're a little late, but... in where?"


"Keep your voice down," hissed Cosmo, just as a hail of applause blew the curtain back and practically deafened him. "In jail."



I got assigned my all-time favorite movie since childhood again, which is always exciting, and seeing my recipient was interested in Cosmo's roots got me even more excited to research because I've always wanted to know more about vaudeville.

I had a great time learning about it, a very frustrating time trying to learn about queer culture of the time, and went way overboard listening to period music to use (there's a playlist, but that's less than 1/5th of the music I downloaded - I listened to 1900-1930 pop hits for about a month, prompting [personal profile] waxjism and [personal profile] perhael to worriedly tell me to relax, 50 tracks is enough!! etc several times).

I've always shipped OT3 (and written it), and it was almost an accident that I arrived at the decision to write their love as brotherly here (but still very much the center of the story), but once I decided it went surprisingly smoothly.
cimorene: cartoony drawing of a woman's head in profile giving dubious side-eye (working)
... I was going to say 'non-writers', but I don't know, maybe my therapist actually is a writer. He thinks I should try to tackle my writer's block - brought it up, even, when I wasn't talking about writing but about the creative stuff I wanted to find time for this summer (painting and sewing kinda stuff from a short to-do list).

He explained the concept of freewriting to me, and it was surreal to have it defined by someone who didn't presume you'd already know about it. To me it's foremost a weird hobby I shared with friends at age 12-14ish, writing and typing outlandishly pointless stream of consciousness things (but trying to make them funny), and then swapping between classes and writing comments on each others'. And I've done it when feeling emo as a young adult, too. I never considered it a writing exercise those times, because they were well before writer's block. Of course I haven't done anything like it for a very long time, but the lingering familiarity lends the whole idea of using it in this novel way — for writer's block — a piquant alienation.

(The following were tweeted and have been moved here:)

I tried 20 minutes of freewriting, but I didn't manage to write everything that crossed my mind because I was worrying at the logistics of
That One Novel that I haven't managed to write for the past mumble years I've had the idea.

This is really the only idea TO worry at when it comes to thinking about Writer's Block, even though it's really less than half of one.

Because it's been like YEARS since I could feel any enthusiasm about writing anything fannish.

I can't believe I wrote like 100 50 thousand words of a *secondary pairing* in bandom. Geez.


Though I do get excited about Yuletide, but it's also quite different with a rare fandom — and Yuletide is almost the only stuff I've written since bandom, except four years ago when I filled a few kinkmeme prompts.
cimorene: cartoony drawing of a woman's head in profile giving dubious side-eye (Default)
I just realized that I forgot to post this here when I posted it to Tumblr on the 1st.

The Affair of the Private Affairs of Miss Lemon (3069 words) by cimorene
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Agatha Christie's Poirot (TV), Poirot - Agatha Christie
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Hercule Poirot, Arthur Hastings, Felicity Lemon, James Japp
Additional Tags: Queer Themes, Queer Gen
Summary:

"I wonder why Miss Lemon hasn't married," said Hastings presently.

"Indeed, Hastings?"

"I mean, she's not bad-looking!" said Hastings. "As a matter of fact, Poirot, she's a very attractive girl."

"Oui, mon ami, and she has also the filing system most excellent."



I must thank [personal profile] waxjism and [personal profile] perhael, by convention, for their assistance with this story, although I think they're too involved with hockey and J-rock respectively to notice the omission if I didn't.

The main thing is to thank my recipient, though, for the opportunity to venture a small amount of Poirot pastiche. I've had ideas about dialogue and narration bouncing around in my head for ages, without enough unified direction to turn into a story until now. It was lots of fun and gave me an excuse to rewatch about half of the Suchet episodes again.

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