inspiration breakouts
19 Oct 2013 03:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cimoreneI keep thinking I have a pithy one-liner to post to Twitter, then accidentally posting a whole blog entry's worth.
Lately I have occasionally had those moments where I suddenly think I would really like to write right now - like I just swallowed a giant, burning gulp of inspiration. It feels like when a fist-sized lump of hot chocolate gets momentarily stuck in your throat on the way down, kind of like "WHOA". But then I instantly seize up because write what?
That's the problem with not having an active fandom. The one that's occasionally keeping me up at night, or causing me to wail "I JUST WANT TO READ A NEW, LONG, AWESOME, NON-AU, EMOTIONALLY SATISFYING OTP FIC" is Sid/Geno, so, HOCKEY, ugh, thanksthefourthvine, and there is no chance of me learning enough stuff about hockey to write anything in that fandom.
There isn't a high output rate for the fandom anyway, so I've been rereading from my own old recs for a month now, everything from The Hobbit (new) to the Dresden Files and Smallville (4-10 years old, completely unfamiliar with canon) to Star Trek (my 2nd-oldest fandom).
Yuletide can be a good outlet for these kinds of inspiration breakouts, and I am a bit sad that I Noped out of it, to borrow a turn of phrase from (lazulisong?).
But it's probably good because energy is unpredictable and I keep getting unexpected writing assignments in Finnish, which, while fun, take a lot more out of me. It's emotionally draining to try to write things that I literally do not know how to express and ending up with sentences that I'm 100% sure are ungrammatical but which I have no way to correct. (Teachers don't like when you ask your wife, so I only use her as an enhanced dictionary, not a grammar checker.) (Besides, she sucks at explaining language, even though she has the nerve to be better at it than me.)
I can't even take impromptu kink meme prompts or anything to blow off steam because of the lack of active fandoms! I couldn't even pick a kink meme! And I can't go work on an original novel because I'm still mired in the research phase there, unfortunately. Fuck being mired in the research phase, seriously.
Lately I have occasionally had those moments where I suddenly think I would really like to write right now - like I just swallowed a giant, burning gulp of inspiration. It feels like when a fist-sized lump of hot chocolate gets momentarily stuck in your throat on the way down, kind of like "WHOA". But then I instantly seize up because write what?
That's the problem with not having an active fandom. The one that's occasionally keeping me up at night, or causing me to wail "I JUST WANT TO READ A NEW, LONG, AWESOME, NON-AU, EMOTIONALLY SATISFYING OTP FIC" is Sid/Geno, so, HOCKEY, ugh, thanks
thefourthvine, and there is no chance of me learning enough stuff about hockey to write anything in that fandom. There isn't a high output rate for the fandom anyway, so I've been rereading from my own old recs for a month now, everything from The Hobbit (new) to the Dresden Files and Smallville (4-10 years old, completely unfamiliar with canon) to Star Trek (my 2nd-oldest fandom).
Yuletide can be a good outlet for these kinds of inspiration breakouts, and I am a bit sad that I Noped out of it, to borrow a turn of phrase from (
lazulisong?). But it's probably good because energy is unpredictable and I keep getting unexpected writing assignments in Finnish, which, while fun, take a lot more out of me. It's emotionally draining to try to write things that I literally do not know how to express and ending up with sentences that I'm 100% sure are ungrammatical but which I have no way to correct. (Teachers don't like when you ask your wife, so I only use her as an enhanced dictionary, not a grammar checker.) (Besides, she sucks at explaining language, even though she has the nerve to be better at it than me.)
I can't even take impromptu kink meme prompts or anything to blow off steam because of the lack of active fandoms! I couldn't even pick a kink meme! And I can't go work on an original novel because I'm still mired in the research phase there, unfortunately. Fuck being mired in the research phase, seriously.
