cimorene

i'm a girl scout. i never really think much about this, but i was when i was painting the bookshelves the other day. i mean, i despise cheerleaders, sure, and i've never been to one of those high school parties where everyone gets drunk in the wilderness, and my friends didn't even have them (it was getting drunk at karti's house, thank you, and i did not go).

but like. senior girl scout with gold award, valedictorian, president of two honor societies, member of three, youth ambassador in the sister city delegation and then again in this, erm, nationwide youth-for-understanding thing sponsored by some various departments of the japanese government. various and sundry writing and art awards. i mean, it really kind of baffles me. sure, i'm used to thinking of myself as better than everyone else. and who isn't? but then again, i also think of myself as lazy. i mean, no, i am lazy. i always came home and read slash until i didn't feel like reading it anymore before i did anything else. i, um, didn't want to do my homework, although i usually did finish it. i only wrote what i felt like writing. i pissed my teachers off regularly because when the english teacher was making up meaning in literature, i told her so.

i mean, my point is, though, that i'm really sort of dismayingly vanilla, conformist, and all-american, no matter how i like to think of myself.

i've never even blown up a park bench.