Cimorene

My first important relationship, both of us were kind of fucked up about love and even though we did love each other, we agreed that "I love you" was such a trite and cliched phrase, without personal meaning, and we wouldn't use it. So instead, we said "I adore you." And even though we broke up long ago and later she got married, divorced and had two children, and I'm getting married next year, when we talk on the phone, that's still what we say to each other.

Fast forward to my next important relationship, and I'm still kind of fucked up about love. I felt like telling K I loved him for months, but couldn't bring myself to do it. Finally, we were lying in bed one night and we got into a bit of a fight that culminated in him saying, "I don't even know how you *feel* about me!" And me saying, "Well, I kind of, you know, think I might possibly, um. Be in love. With you." And then I burst into tears. Then there was hugging and kissing and mutual declarations and stuff. So it was pretty memorable :)