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[cimorene]

i wanted very much to remember whatever dream i had last night, but most of whatever i remember has to do with this warm-ness, and looking at someone. also someone patted me on the head. (am confused about this.) i don't even remember who the someone(s) was(were). there was a cat. there was aubry. i keep dreaming about her a lot, lately, not that this is a bad thing. in other news, crushes are annoying. if i develop one, will def. need to be kicked. am determined not to.

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[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

crushes can be quite fun. but there is a line that's very easily crossed when they turn all hurty and bad.
unless the crushee also has a crush back and then it can go all pretty and mmmmmm.

[cimness.livejournal.com]

can be fun, but are a pain if they involve real or semi-real people. not like viggo, orli, etc--they have no concern whatsoever. but real people. ugh. no. got enough of this for life between 6th and 10th grades, am relatively certain. maybe should go read the drivel i wrote then to scare myself off? ...but the image, agh.

[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

how can a person be semi-real????

[cimness.livejournal.com]

real people that you don't really know become semi-real when you construct the rest of them in your head as if they were fictional.

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[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

oooooh i see. semi-real people are the WORST kind of people to have crushes on.

[cimness.livejournal.com]

<-- pitiful cim

yes. the VERY worst because you make them better than they really are.

wrote v. v. bad poem about this once, i think. it probably rhymed. i would laugh at that, except it's still too horrific.

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[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

well just don't have crushes on semi-real people - STOP!!!!!

i am very knowledgable about this problem. it has never ended well for me is all i can say....
*sniffles*

[cimness.livejournal.com]

trying! trying!

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[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

good. soon i shall expect to hear "succeeded succeeded".

[cimness.livejournal.com]

lied when said was trying. don't really know how one would go about stopping.

have crush on someone else? ergh. sigh. what about Startled! Boy? but he's annoying. you know, it kinda sucks to be annoyed about people knowing the answers when i don't.

...

but i'm not used to it, dammit.

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[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

actually i don't think you can stop. it just eventually disappears. or at least that's my experience..

have had crush on this girl for 5 years now. but she's real not semi-real.... it ebbs and flows. i doubt it'll ever go away...

your crushee though, does he know about your crush? (does he have stubble? ^_^)

[cimness.livejournal.com]

no! we're talking about a female person here, who is def. not real and def. doesn't know. shudder. and to make it worse, i have not really ever had a crush on a female person before--okay, i have, but not one with this strength. with a friend it's easy to sublimate, and when it's not, it's ignorable... for random acquaintances, that is... i've never had a crush on other than a real person at all! *whine*

i'm really confused. and upset. about this. yeah. and i don't seem to be stopping. i am trying.

<--has a weakness for stubble, but not quite that much of one.

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[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

eeeek! but hey, girls are nice.
i guess telling her might not be the best idea? hmmm. my crush girl started as someone i didn't know. except i met her once and thought she was scary. then kinda got emailing and fancied her for about 2 years before i saw her again. and while she was semi-real she kinda fancied me, but had no self confidence so didn't think i'd fancy real her, but when i saw her and she became real again i did fancy her, i did so much. but then she didn't fancy real me..... although she DID the first time we met (when i was scared of her). which just takes the piss......

but anyway. hmmm. i don't know what to say. i think you just have to let it run its course. how not real is she? superstar not real or real person semi-real?

i find stubble icky. and painful.

[cimness.livejournal.com]

real person semi. superstars don't go semi-real, they get rather less real than that; marginally-real perhaps? (hey, i made it up... i get to fuck with the terminology.)

nope. telling would be bad. although. no.

re: stubble: heh. yes, i imagine it would be, but i've never been kissed by anyone with it, only admired it from a distance.

your story: awwwww. v. touching, despite the "fate sucks" aspect. i don't know. i just liked the story.

<--has had, since just after lunch, the sneaking and v. unwelcome suspicion that the blond from last night's exciting romantic adventure f/f dream was partially based on the semireal person despite lack of overt resemblance, for various reasons. and. yeah. this sucks.

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[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

do you know if she even likes girls? that's always a good start.

stubble is icky and prickly and scratchy ick.

that was the short short mega short story. i could write thousands of words about her... millions. i could tell the full story and bire the pants off everyone. i love the story. but hmph. i'm never going to stop feeling how i feel about her, it jsut ebbs and flows... and i will live with it forever.... *sighs*

oooooooh dreams about crushees. then it means it's getting serious. i dreamt about my crush girl three days in a row once...

pah to suckiness. just work through it. it'll all be ok eventually. *hugs*

[cimness.livejournal.com]

i accept hugs, but i'm not going to find out her preferences. i'm not going to start. i have no intentions of it. not sure i would even like to. <--crush aside. ...okay, part of me would certainly like to. find myself wishing for more dreams.

pathetic.

crushes can be fun. but in general. i dislike them. with reason.

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[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

well maybe you can make it go away by suddenly finding a real person to crush on?

sorry i have absolutely no helpful advice for the situation as i just tellow to wallow in my own misery where crushes are concerned.

[cimness.livejournal.com]

yes! wallowing in my misery is exactly what i do. hehe. but of course it's not a good idea. it's ok, though, that you can't give advice. i couldn't reasonably expect it, could i? having a crush on a real person... less dangerous, but could result in stalking, besides which i think i rather have one already. luckily don't know her name and only see her in the cafeteria every now and then.

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[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

well you'd think with the number of crushes i've had i'd at least be able to think of something useful to say about them....

but no. i am useless. i'd just have to say go with the crush and eventually it will either develop into a lovely relationship or you'll just get over it.... or something.

and just do whatever you want cos with crushes even if people give you advice that sounds sensible it's nigh on impossible to make yourself follow it if your heart is pulling you a different way and if you don't really want to follow it.

yeah. :(/:)? well. okay. go with it?

[cimness.livejournal.com]

*sigh*