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I like my work practice placement. I would rather send my supremely hypothetical offspring there than the other daycare I substituted at once here Turku.
All the employees I've met seem pleasant enough, the boss is very welcoming and helpful, and I get free food and Twinings Earl Grey and the free expensive chocolate and cookies at the coffee break are plentiful.
The breaks are also generous. The atmosphere is nice. It's sort of luxurious, as daycares go.
I also feel more confident in social situations now. Like, where in the past my brain might have been a yawning, panicky chasm of "HOW DOES SMALLTALK???" and "AM I EVEN SUPPOSED TO TALK????", now it's just "THIS IS THE PLACE WHERE I SHOULD BE MAKING SMALLTALK BUT WHAT IF I CAN'T SUMMON THE SPOONS TO DO IT" (I failed a couple times today, but only at making conversational first moves, not at responding appropriately to smalltalk from other people - which I judge to be acceptable, as the former is much harder).
But I'm an introvert and I just REALLY HATE NEW PLACES AND SITUATIONS, okay.
It doesn't matter that the place is friendly and the job is undemanding because I already know that just by going there I am signing up for my brain having to be ON, in like, EXTRA-ALERT MODE, all the time that I am there until it decides that it is a Familiar Place and I can relax there. And until then not only can I not feel comfortable there, but every day is like an EXHAUSTING PARTLY SUBCONSCIOUS MENTAL WORKOUT and I am full to bursting with experiences to process that are mostly the introvert-brain equivalent of security tape of an empty hallway.
All the employees I've met seem pleasant enough, the boss is very welcoming and helpful, and I get free food and Twinings Earl Grey and the free expensive chocolate and cookies at the coffee break are plentiful.
The breaks are also generous. The atmosphere is nice. It's sort of luxurious, as daycares go.
I also feel more confident in social situations now. Like, where in the past my brain might have been a yawning, panicky chasm of "HOW DOES SMALLTALK???" and "AM I EVEN SUPPOSED TO TALK????", now it's just "THIS IS THE PLACE WHERE I SHOULD BE MAKING SMALLTALK BUT WHAT IF I CAN'T SUMMON THE SPOONS TO DO IT" (I failed a couple times today, but only at making conversational first moves, not at responding appropriately to smalltalk from other people - which I judge to be acceptable, as the former is much harder).
But I'm an introvert and I just REALLY HATE NEW PLACES AND SITUATIONS, okay.
It doesn't matter that the place is friendly and the job is undemanding because I already know that just by going there I am signing up for my brain having to be ON, in like, EXTRA-ALERT MODE, all the time that I am there until it decides that it is a Familiar Place and I can relax there. And until then not only can I not feel comfortable there, but every day is like an EXHAUSTING PARTLY SUBCONSCIOUS MENTAL WORKOUT and I am full to bursting with experiences to process that are mostly the introvert-brain equivalent of security tape of an empty hallway.
