hyperfixations and counterphobic coping mechanisms... and surprise clown slash oh my?

My psychologist wasn't concerned about the extent of my sudden compulsive drawing for like 6-10 hours per day instead of more like 1-2 hours per week, but I did get a chuckle for that and then an even bigger chuckle when he asked what I was drawing and I told him about my new Commedia dell'arte hyperfixation. (I am not actually CONCERNED either, because it's not like anything bad is really going to happen, but I am a bit bemused by the sheer scale of the change in my habits.) (Though actually, when I say nothing bad's going to happen, I have had a slight soreness in my right hand. No cramps or anything like the last time I drew until it hurt, which was in like 2014 in the after school program where I spent most of the work day every day drawing pictures 'to color' for kids who had formed themselves into a queue and typically wanted me to try to reproduce online photos for them. That kept up for weeks which caused hand cramps and made my shoulder seize up until I had to take like a week-long break from any drawing or knitting - I was also knitting at home during that time - to wait for it to stop hurting. Maybe it was the knitting at home that did it. Or maybe it just kept up for longer. It's not really the same sort of drawing though because I'm mostly not trying to do realistic photos and have primarily been using ink.)

Here's a tiny fraction (the ones I came closer to finishing and the ones I liked the most for the most part) of all this hyperfixated Harlequin/Pierrot and Harlequin and Pierrot content, not in chronological order (you can tell the earliest ones because they're before I read about the theory that Harlequin is intended to be Black) ( Read more... )