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Lyonel Feininger (1871-1956) was a German-American Expressionist painter who became the first faculty appointment to the Bauhaus by Walter Gropius after its founding in 1919. He designed the cover for the 1919 Bauhaus manifesto, a woodblock print, and taught at the Bauhaus for several years. He was also a very successful comic strip artist and cartoonist for 20 years before his career as a fine artist began at age 36, as well as a composer and pianist. He was a member of several important artist movements and groups including the Berliner Sezession and the German Expressionist groups Die Brücke("The Bridge"), the Novembergruppe, Gruppe 1919, the Blaue Reiter ("The Blue Rider") and Die Blaue Vier ("The Blue Four").

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anxiety all maxed out

My dad went to the hospital today because his nurse on her visit told him to get a worrying wet cough checked out, and he's got covid pneumonia. He's moving to the ER.

Pneumonia is always a risk for quadriplegics and he's had it more times than I can count. And this was also his second covid infection as well. The first one wasn't directly caused by my sister's mother-in-law visiting without getting a covid test first.

(And my sister, brother-in-law, mom, and dad all okaying the visit without suggesting she have a covid test or apparently thinking of the possibility or, if I remember right, even knowing that there was a substantial risk of breakthrough infections even in the triple-vaccinated with omicron... because apparently they all got anxiety exhaustion to the point that they stopped paying ANY attention to news about the pandemic. I found all this out after she tested positive after presenting with symptoms when she was already there. Before that I had just assumed they HAD had a negative test first because it didn't even occur to me none of them had the slightest clue. And they didn't mention the visit to me until it was fait accompli, anyway.)

I am KIND of maxed out on anxiety. Learning this just now did give me a rush of panic adrenaline, but apart from the adrenaline, which is just unpleasant, there's no higher background level of anxiety or preparedness or... anything... available. Just going through a spell of frustration as well.