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and now I want some key lime pie
1 Mar 2022 06:23 pmLast day tomorrow. I'm not feeling sad about it at all even though I liked the place, just a bit regretful. I guess that's the difference between a place that's just pleasant and comfortable like this, and a place that's warmly friendly like the Red Cross store was. I didn't form any connections to miss here, although I had good working relationships with almost everyone. And then there's Exhaustion. Seasonal Depression. Anxiety. You know... Mental Health. I still haven't stopped being tired most of the time yet from the winter/darkness - in fact I'm just starting to get a little bit more energy (but still making up the negatives, not reaching equilibrium yet)! So even though it means I have to do more work of applying soon, and also then venturing to and accustoming myself to new places, which are both awful for me... right now I'm just relieved that I definitely get some time off.
How much better I'm feeling: making food and doing the dishes sort of, not running out of laundry, spot-sweeping every few days. Today the sunbeam hit the cabinet fronts and the stove for the first time this year and I was moved to scrub them a little bit, even.
And then I took the time to oil my cuticles carefully for the first time since before Christmas! I have to moisturize constantly always of course, even depressed, but I've just been doing it as needed to keep from getting more hangnails, or to trim my fingernails. This time I actually used the cuticle pusher as intended, even though it is fiddly and time consuming. I have a whole nailpolish collection! And I haven't painted my nails since before Christmas! So today I tried one of the new shades I bought back then and hadn't tried yet - ILNP Sundance, which I finally ordered from Hypnotic Polish in the Netherlands after searching for YEARS for a duplicate of a shimmer lime/kiwi L'Oreal polish I bought at the grocery store as a teenager. And I think it's still a little too yellow. But this type of green has been un-trendy in nailpolish for quite some time. The big polish brands like Essie and OPI haven't put out a similar shade in years - there's a gap between chartreuse and kelly/grass green in everybody's lineups. I love holographic glitter polishes. So mesmerising to watch the sparkles move.
Speaking of that color, the day before yesterday I spent mostly making this icon. The idea of pixel art of my favorite antique radio, the adorable Australian bakelite AWA Radiolette "Fret & Foot" from 1937, hit me quite suddenly last week and I couldn't avoid the impulse. It's such a perfectly delightful object, even much cuter than standard art deco bakelite radios! I've only found photos online of two individual examples of it, probably because bakelite survival isn't the best and light colors are more prone to discoloration, while the fretwork is probably quite fragile. So when I say I want one, I don't really want one for close to 10 thousand AUD, but I do think there are so many box-shaped things in the world that COULD look more like this and don't and it's very disappointing that they don't. Like my computer case. Bakelite radios are a MUCH better model for a desktop computer case than the black and gray shoeboxes (with and without plexiglass/colored lights for ~gaming~) currently in use.
How much better I'm feeling: making food and doing the dishes sort of, not running out of laundry, spot-sweeping every few days. Today the sunbeam hit the cabinet fronts and the stove for the first time this year and I was moved to scrub them a little bit, even.
And then I took the time to oil my cuticles carefully for the first time since before Christmas! I have to moisturize constantly always of course, even depressed, but I've just been doing it as needed to keep from getting more hangnails, or to trim my fingernails. This time I actually used the cuticle pusher as intended, even though it is fiddly and time consuming. I have a whole nailpolish collection! And I haven't painted my nails since before Christmas! So today I tried one of the new shades I bought back then and hadn't tried yet - ILNP Sundance, which I finally ordered from Hypnotic Polish in the Netherlands after searching for YEARS for a duplicate of a shimmer lime/kiwi L'Oreal polish I bought at the grocery store as a teenager. And I think it's still a little too yellow. But this type of green has been un-trendy in nailpolish for quite some time. The big polish brands like Essie and OPI haven't put out a similar shade in years - there's a gap between chartreuse and kelly/grass green in everybody's lineups. I love holographic glitter polishes. So mesmerising to watch the sparkles move.
Speaking of that color, the day before yesterday I spent mostly making this icon. The idea of pixel art of my favorite antique radio, the adorable Australian bakelite AWA Radiolette "Fret & Foot" from 1937, hit me quite suddenly last week and I couldn't avoid the impulse. It's such a perfectly delightful object, even much cuter than standard art deco bakelite radios! I've only found photos online of two individual examples of it, probably because bakelite survival isn't the best and light colors are more prone to discoloration, while the fretwork is probably quite fragile. So when I say I want one, I don't really want one for close to 10 thousand AUD, but I do think there are so many box-shaped things in the world that COULD look more like this and don't and it's very disappointing that they don't. Like my computer case. Bakelite radios are a MUCH better model for a desktop computer case than the black and gray shoeboxes (with and without plexiglass/colored lights for ~gaming~) currently in use.
