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26 Jul 2019 09:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cimorene'Camping' that is actually living out of piles and garbage bags and half-packed boxes in an apartment with a kitchen and a bed and a table and two chairs isn't actually that bad. I would like to have a sofa or comfortable chair so I could use the computer without sitting on the bed or the floor, and ideally I would like to know where the rest of my belongings are and be able to reach them, but I've stayed, camped, and lived in way less comfortable places, albeit not while caring for two bunnies and two sick cats with semi-incompatible dietary requrements.
I'm mostly just tired of (1) the executive function drain of having so many open questions to worry about at one time, (2) not being able to do anything about them yet, and (3) the resulting flood of social interaction that has not given me enough introvert recovery time so I keep getting overstimulated again almost immediately any time I have to go anywhere or interact with anybody. Not to the point of having any anxiety attacks, just to the intensely wanting to scream, teeth-grinding level and the level where I try to dredge up the ability to put on an In Public Face and emote and respond verbally and just come up completely blank and keep staring at the wall instead.
Also, though, we've been having a heatwave (for Finland), and it's pretty cool inside the flat but it's horrible to do anything outside. And it's not gonna be fun to clean our old flat, which is way less cool, over this weekend before turning over the keys.
I'm mostly just tired of (1) the executive function drain of having so many open questions to worry about at one time, (2) not being able to do anything about them yet, and (3) the resulting flood of social interaction that has not given me enough introvert recovery time so I keep getting overstimulated again almost immediately any time I have to go anywhere or interact with anybody. Not to the point of having any anxiety attacks, just to the intensely wanting to scream, teeth-grinding level and the level where I try to dredge up the ability to put on an In Public Face and emote and respond verbally and just come up completely blank and keep staring at the wall instead.
Also, though, we've been having a heatwave (for Finland), and it's pretty cool inside the flat but it's horrible to do anything outside. And it's not gonna be fun to clean our old flat, which is way less cool, over this weekend before turning over the keys.
