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cimoreneI'm not too physically exhausted by working five hours in a day (although at the end of that time my feet are certainly tired), but five hours of work is six hours at work and that's 8½-9 hours out of the house.
Four days out of the house a week isn't too much, exactly, but when they're four days in a row where I have to choose between getting enough sleep to feel fully rested or having like... any time awake and not working to... decompress with my own thoughts, that is exhausting - it's mentally/emotionally exhausting.
Right now, I'm feeling like four days in a row of the above results in me either not getting enough sleep or not having enough time to myself, and often both. And a three day weekend isn't quite long enough to recover from four days in a row of that.
At the same time, I'm accustomed enough to my work practice now to start getting bored there. It's not guaranteed to be boring - there are still the possibility of things that are a bit different coming up, so I did have fun quite a few times this last week in spite of feeling like I was so tired I wished I could be completely done there last Sunday night. And there's always driving the elevated work platform and ripping open big packages and pallets; THAT'S never gonna get old. But many of the tasks there that were new and fun at first have had time to become old hat now. And I'd still rather have an actual job that was close enough to walk to easily and didn't want me to work as many hours, though. (Sadly, I missed the summer job application window this spring, but then again, the application window came when it was even more uncertain what was happening with the pandemic than it is now, and now it's still pretty uncertain. So it's probably just as well.)
Four days out of the house a week isn't too much, exactly, but when they're four days in a row where I have to choose between getting enough sleep to feel fully rested or having like... any time awake and not working to... decompress with my own thoughts, that is exhausting - it's mentally/emotionally exhausting.
Right now, I'm feeling like four days in a row of the above results in me either not getting enough sleep or not having enough time to myself, and often both. And a three day weekend isn't quite long enough to recover from four days in a row of that.
At the same time, I'm accustomed enough to my work practice now to start getting bored there. It's not guaranteed to be boring - there are still the possibility of things that are a bit different coming up, so I did have fun quite a few times this last week in spite of feeling like I was so tired I wished I could be completely done there last Sunday night. And there's always driving the elevated work platform and ripping open big packages and pallets; THAT'S never gonna get old. But many of the tasks there that were new and fun at first have had time to become old hat now. And I'd still rather have an actual job that was close enough to walk to easily and didn't want me to work as many hours, though. (Sadly, I missed the summer job application window this spring, but then again, the application window came when it was even more uncertain what was happening with the pandemic than it is now, and now it's still pretty uncertain. So it's probably just as well.)
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Date: 26 Mar 2021 09:02 pm (UTC)ALSO HUGS.