cimorene

oh, yeah, and. i watched a bunch of tos eps today including the corbomite maneuver.

i'm sure i noticed it the first time around and then forgot it, but god, it's emotionally a goldmine! it's ripe for slashing.

all the crew who were exposed on the planet to radiation start aging super-fast. jim's forgetting things and getting arthritis. mccoy goes entirely white. spock starts to gray, and moves more slowly. jim can't remember anything, really, and the commodore who just happens to be there demands a competency hearing. spock gives in. the commodore assumes command because spock refuses it. spock goes to tell him.

'get out,' jim says, 'i don't want to ever have to look at your face again.'

the pain in spock's face! and all through the episode, when he sees the errors jim is making and doesn't say anything, then when he argues with the commodore: 'i would... resist... such a suggestion.'

'mr spock, it's not a matter of CHOICE.'

he's already looking down, because he knows, god, that the blow is coming, and jim knows he's being irrational. i can almost hear him thinking--he feels so betrayed. 'spock, i wouldn't have thought it of you.' oh, and they're soinlove. ::sniffle:: their love is TRAGIC, but yet, so beautifully rife with opportunities for first-time-happy endings. i can never decide on just one point in canon where the first time has to have happened.

of course, that gol nonsense does a bit to screw it up, but mostly i just ignore that.