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cimoreneat the beginning of this year, i was very very glad to live in a triple. i wanted 2 roommates so i would not have to be alone, as i grew up very close to my family and am used to not being alone. then i discovered it's really not the same and got depressed and sick, and then i got over both of those, and rm#1 fell in love with her best friend the homewrecker and rm#2 got a sketchy boyfriend with whom she sleeps all the time, so i essentially do have a single, with the addition of occasional affection and a tv and refrigerator and couch and papasan chair belonging to the various roommates. this is good, n'est c'pas?
i now want a single. i don't want rm#2's sketchy guy walking into the living room when i'm talking on the phone in my underwear. i don't want rm#1 to ask me to lunch or need to talk about her problems (even though i love her, i really do) when i'm trying to im with a friend about the utter and complete collapse of his love life.
and next year, i'm probably going to live in a one-room double [trailer!] behind the athletic field a million miles from the dining hall. don't be surprised if i stop updating, then, it'll mean i've starved to death. i don't eat three meals a day living ABOVE the dining hall. --and i'll have as a roommate someone i don't know. of course, jr year abroad could be preferable, but isn't it sad when you make unlimited internet access an essential quality of your study-abroad location? and when you don't know where to go anymore after five years of japan being the single, the only, the Really Important thing in your life. i don't want to study japanese or major in it, and i still like japan, but i only really want to go there because i miss mayumi and her parents so hard it hurts. am dreading explaining this to my advisor--"i don't want to take japanese, but is there a study abroad anyway? but it has to be in kyoto." uhuuuuuuuuuuh.
meanwhile, i am sick of having secrets and i want the school year to be over, and i want my mom to... suddenly become more like my dad. i don't mind listening to her talk about bad students, but she's taking on scary irrational teacher characteristics.
i now want a single. i don't want rm#2's sketchy guy walking into the living room when i'm talking on the phone in my underwear. i don't want rm#1 to ask me to lunch or need to talk about her problems (even though i love her, i really do) when i'm trying to im with a friend about the utter and complete collapse of his love life.
and next year, i'm probably going to live in a one-room double [trailer!] behind the athletic field a million miles from the dining hall. don't be surprised if i stop updating, then, it'll mean i've starved to death. i don't eat three meals a day living ABOVE the dining hall. --and i'll have as a roommate someone i don't know. of course, jr year abroad could be preferable, but isn't it sad when you make unlimited internet access an essential quality of your study-abroad location? and when you don't know where to go anymore after five years of japan being the single, the only, the Really Important thing in your life. i don't want to study japanese or major in it, and i still like japan, but i only really want to go there because i miss mayumi and her parents so hard it hurts. am dreading explaining this to my advisor--"i don't want to take japanese, but is there a study abroad anyway? but it has to be in kyoto." uhuuuuuuuuuuh.
meanwhile, i am sick of having secrets and i want the school year to be over, and i want my mom to... suddenly become more like my dad. i don't mind listening to her talk about bad students, but she's taking on scary irrational teacher characteristics.
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Date: 8 Apr 2002 08:41 am (UTC)