![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cimoreneno more work at this hour. i am too tired to even notice all the little things like missing spaces between words, let alone to process at the content level, although i did have the ghost of an idea about how significant use of "my" (my Vulcan, my Captain, etc) really is. ie, not just a passing reference but an indicator of the way they operate. power dynamics, people. it's all about that lately. hm. it's possible that i have stopped entirely making sense.
was thinking--and also talking--about diff. between real fiction and fan fiction. getting pressure from real family to write real fiction which could submit some place to have published. and i could write it, i suppose, only i keep getting these plot bunnies for short stories in fandom. and also, of course, it's rather scary.
ANYWAY, fandom is partly so different because it is romance, and romance even more than other modern realistic fiction, as a genre, internalizes the conflicts that are external in science fiction and fantasy. every story has threads of external plot (happening in world, to character) and internal (mental changes within character--which isn't to say these aren't sparked by events. they are). my writing is some of the most intensely internal i know. i really don't usually more than briefly nod at anything going on outside the character's head, and this domlijah goes further than i have before in that direction. writing romance is thus somewhat easier: when the internal development is focused on, the story's automatically circumscribed by the character's head and, well, character. it makes it smaller. the same themes you might attack in sff with plots and events and things that could make a poor character-oriented writer like me lose her head are all wrapped up in metaphor and imagery and disconnected little thingies that all drift together to form a picture, hopefully. in sff, the greater emphasis is on the external conflict and development, usually, and it's an oft-alluded-to quality of it that not only does it emphasize the external, but it externalizes the internal. meanwhile, romance does the opposite, takes other issues and shrinks them and treats them only within the context of romance/interpersonal relationships/ one person's head. jumping into original fiction that WASN'T romance is going to be like jumping into the big pool from the baby pool. suddenly, the size of any given universe i create is much, much larger. sort of scary, not because, well, really scary, but because i'm baffled: where to begin? ah, there's the clincher. maybe i'll just beta for a few weeks until this blows over and i can write my arwen pov piece in peace.
piece in peace? ahahaha.
um. bed.
was thinking--and also talking--about diff. between real fiction and fan fiction. getting pressure from real family to write real fiction which could submit some place to have published. and i could write it, i suppose, only i keep getting these plot bunnies for short stories in fandom. and also, of course, it's rather scary.
ANYWAY, fandom is partly so different because it is romance, and romance even more than other modern realistic fiction, as a genre, internalizes the conflicts that are external in science fiction and fantasy. every story has threads of external plot (happening in world, to character) and internal (mental changes within character--which isn't to say these aren't sparked by events. they are). my writing is some of the most intensely internal i know. i really don't usually more than briefly nod at anything going on outside the character's head, and this domlijah goes further than i have before in that direction. writing romance is thus somewhat easier: when the internal development is focused on, the story's automatically circumscribed by the character's head and, well, character. it makes it smaller. the same themes you might attack in sff with plots and events and things that could make a poor character-oriented writer like me lose her head are all wrapped up in metaphor and imagery and disconnected little thingies that all drift together to form a picture, hopefully. in sff, the greater emphasis is on the external conflict and development, usually, and it's an oft-alluded-to quality of it that not only does it emphasize the external, but it externalizes the internal. meanwhile, romance does the opposite, takes other issues and shrinks them and treats them only within the context of romance/interpersonal relationships/ one person's head. jumping into original fiction that WASN'T romance is going to be like jumping into the big pool from the baby pool. suddenly, the size of any given universe i create is much, much larger. sort of scary, not because, well, really scary, but because i'm baffled: where to begin? ah, there's the clincher. maybe i'll just beta for a few weeks until this blows over and i can write my arwen pov piece in peace.
piece in peace? ahahaha.
um. bed.
