and is the doorway wide enough? + hikaru no go recs

[cimorene]

last night i dreamt that kitten_head and i were camping at one of our favourite childhood campgrounds. in my dream, i was saying to her, "it's the one in kentucky with the koi," but on waking up i remember the real thing about that campground was the sanctuary for injured deer. we'd spend hours feeding them through the fence; they were pretty tame.

this might be the first dream i've ever had in which daddy was in a wheelchair. i've heard before that dreams take years to catch up with reality, and people frequently dream about their childhood homes well into adulthood. in the dream we were camping in a cabin instead of a tent, because a tent wouldn't really work for dad (and actually, neither would a cabin, unless it was a really, really modern one without any doorsills). when i woke up, we were fussing around the cabin, trying to determine how accessible it would be, and how mom was going to get dad into bed, and all that sort of thing. that made me remember that i've been imploring my parents to visit me in finland and claiming that our apartment is accessible, but in fact, there's a huge step up into the building at all the doors. he could only make it if they brought the portable ramp.

actually, the idea of them flying internationally again kind of makes me shudder with fear. what if he got another lung infection? i wonder if it's even possible to dissuade my parents from travelling, though. but maybe they could be talked into staying in america, at least.

i've recently finished going through all 33 pages of hikaru no go at fanfiction.net (that was my last stop - i'd already been through livejournal), and now i'm poking through old community entries every now and then, just in case there's anything i missed. one effect of canon's incredible awesomeness and its rather abrupt ending at what is obviously, in fact, the beginning of many of the characters' careers is that i keep wanting more. i've already read several volumes of the manga twice or three times, and last night i rewatched the last three episodes (which is to say, the romantic climax) of the anime, though i greatly prefer the manga - at least i do like the voice actors, even if the animation itself makes me crinkle my nose.

there are 55 bookmarks in my hikaru/akira tag at del.icio.us, but that's because i kept the threshold for bookmarking very low in this fandom and saved practically everything i thought i might want to find again, including some things that are quite bad overall but had some good point somewhere. (warning: even my page of bookmarks may contain spoilers. if you haven't got to the end, don't look.) the very good stuff is mostly established relationship, smarm gen smarm or preslash, or else very very short. it's a small fandom. (i need to add some tags to do with how good things actually are and how much i like them, i think. i'm considering adding a set of tags for my caveats too, like "pretentious", "non-native speaker", "ooc"... .)

i was going to upload some caps from the last few episodes of anime but i got sidetracked. have some manga pages, instead.



that last one where they are clearly on a date is one of my favourite manga covers, and not just because they're clearly on a date, but because hikaru's clearly rubbing off on akira because not only is he dressed more casually but he's lounging. slouching, even.