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cimoreneI keep having to set the alarm and get up on time. What is with that shit? It's only been like four days of it, but suddenly 'sleep' is topping my list of desired leisure activities. Oh, and also, it's possible that there was school this week even though I didn't register yet. I guess I needed a longer jetlag recovery period in order to squeeze this beginning of school shit in. I forgot how exhausting it was. I didn't forget how much I hate going to school, though. Especially if I have to do it in the morning. But basically any time.
And ALSO I was so sure that I had pre-ordered, back in July, these two Emilie Autumn CDs that were being released in August. But it seemed like I should have them by now so I went looking and I can't find confirmation emails, screencaps, or any other kind of record of the order's existence, and neither of the websites I was thinking of ordering it from have any record. Possibly they just like, sent it a week ago and I don't have it yet, but on the other hand possibly something went wrong or I completely forgot after all. So now I've had to ask Dad to check my bank balance to see because I cannot make the bank's internet login thingy work, like, ever. And meanwhile I am cdless.And I also don't have the pink tshirt that was supposed to come with it and it's possible that I'm even more bummed about that.
Anxiety + lack of sleep + being a total misanthrope, anyway = hating everybody even more than usual. My innate sympathy makes me cringe from the idea of actually squishing people with viciously cutting smackdowns as I long to do because I also don't actually want to hurt anybody's feelings, ever, so I just fume in impotent rage. Actually it feels sort of like PMS, just at the totally wrong time. Sympathy and sadism are poor travelling companions.
And ALSO I was so sure that I had pre-ordered, back in July, these two Emilie Autumn CDs that were being released in August. But it seemed like I should have them by now so I went looking and I can't find confirmation emails, screencaps, or any other kind of record of the order's existence, and neither of the websites I was thinking of ordering it from have any record. Possibly they just like, sent it a week ago and I don't have it yet, but on the other hand possibly something went wrong or I completely forgot after all. So now I've had to ask Dad to check my bank balance to see because I cannot make the bank's internet login thingy work, like, ever. And meanwhile I am cdless.
Anxiety + lack of sleep + being a total misanthrope, anyway = hating everybody even more than usual. My innate sympathy makes me cringe from the idea of actually squishing people with viciously cutting smackdowns as I long to do because I also don't actually want to hurt anybody's feelings, ever, so I just fume in impotent rage. Actually it feels sort of like PMS, just at the totally wrong time. Sympathy and sadism are poor travelling companions.
