cimorene

insulted wax with conspicuous stupidity. really must kick this elitism habit.

wax seems cool with it, but am still remorseful and bleh. icky.

elitism has ALWAYS been my besetting sin. i always feel just... vaguely superior. am not sure why. my parents are like this too, of course, but i think i am actually worse. maybe it's constitutional, although that would certainly be odd. i think it's an odd combination of circumstances like having been accustomed as a child to prefer the company of adults to that of other children--i still do and am uncomfortable with people my own age (with few exceptions). or like the sucky us public schools which had me so used to effortless 100%s by middle school that i couldn't get a b without crying.

i'm just a sticky morass of problems, aren't i? *pokes morass gingerly*
morass: *quivers ominously*

so. yeah. in this case the elitism has just formed a habit. like, am in the habit of saying "ew yuck" re: horror just as am in the habit of edging away when touched by strangers, or of smiling when people smile at me.

elitism is not actually that wonderful. i mean, i don't object to thinking the majority of people are morons, as they clearly ARE. it's just. like. pointless distinctions in literature. all based on taste.

and annoyed her. and me too.

of course, there was the kissing and making up.

not sure if is worth it.

...okay. yes. is.