cimorene

i'm a very judgmental person. i watch alertly and consider all the input i can get and try to figure people out. and i file them in little boxes, temporarily. i often forget eventually why i've put someone in a certain mental box, like 'ditz' or 'bitch' or 'hypocrite.' but that doesn't stop me from putting them there. and i have tons of boxes for things too. which is kind of surprising given how bad i am at remembering conventional trivia--oh well. anyway, i don't ever entirely withhold judgment. even the 'withholding judgment' mental box has tags and notes sticking out of it. and my mental files for people have sticky notes all over them. the evaluations i make of people's characters aren't easily revoked, either--i'm stubborn, i guess. my good opinion, once gained, is remarkably loyal, and once lost is unlikely to return. i go with intuition a lot. it works for me. i suppose the flip side of being so analytical, and so oriented to observing and evaluating and describing everything, is that bad word, then--'judgmental.' and the flip side of loyalty is holding grudges--theoretical grudges, if not emotional ones. i'm don't hate things for a long time, but i'll still have them in the 'earned an extremely poor opinion' box, and anything associated with them will get a 'poor opinion' sticky note. ahhh, fun with metaphors.

this is a song that i love with great love which is NOT shameful or irrational.