unreasonably happy

[cimorene]

i stayed up until 10 am this morning trying to finish this porny story even though by the time i started it, the challenge had already been closed at pillarchallenge (and i'm still in the middle of something else!). and on top of that, (a) i didn't actually finish it before lapsing into unconsciousness, though it's close; and (b) it didn't turn out as porny as it was supposed to, which is good for the story but a little irritating for me because i've been thinking about the severe lack of tezuryo porn and intending to write some for a while.

however, of the (unrelated) good: wax_jism's old monitor broke and today mece delivered her birthday present early: a 20" widescreen flatscreen lcd monitor. lucky she was turning 30 this year! and hellloooooooo, sweet sweet watching of dvds. i should be worried about the papers i have to turn in on the 15th (you know - those ones i haven't even started), but i can't manage to shake my feeling of contentment right now. plus, there's been some really good tenipuri fic posted the last couple of days, most notably fuji/inui and momokai.

Comments

[perhael.livejournal.com]

oh man, do i covet that flatscreen. i was seriously considering buying this gorgeous 19" thing the other day, but copped out because dude, the money. now that i'm without gainful employment and such.

p.s. have you see this (http://community.livejournal.com/rosnguil/62233.html)?

[cimness.livejournal.com]

oh, haha, i didn't even notice what community it was in when i saw it, just skimmed past.

[kessie.livejournal.com]

I need to finish cleaning so I can write. :|

kshdklsjdh Still need to study. Oops.

[cimness.livejournal.com]

ME TOO. laundry. two loads of dishes. the floor is covered in cardboard boxes and styrofoam and plastic bags.

but i stopped halfway through a sex scene o.O and i have to finish this sorta-not-really-porn so i can write the other story.

and then there's the actual studying. or in this case all the papers i have to write by the 15th. and somehow it's 7 pm. aösjlkföalsd. but all i can do is think the equivalent of keysmashes about how romantic tezuka is and how aölskdf meltingly in love he and ryoma are and. gah.

[kessie.livejournal.com]

I've been trying to find space for the 70 books I carted home from college. :) Am running out of shelf space again.

I'm still not sure about TezuRyo porn. jsdhaj I was just reading that NC-17 TezuRyo fic from pillarchallenge and the minute I read "cock", I just twitched. My brain does not yet compute with the porn, yet it's helpfully supplying me with more than enough images.

...

I can't believe I just said that.

I need to dig my notebook and my favourite pin out. This feels like a longhand fic.

kdhjdsh I am still agog at how they manage to seem so in love JUST BY LOOKING AT EACH OTHER. THEIR EXPRESSIONS. OH, GOD. THIS PAIRING, IT KILLS ME.

[kessie.livejournal.com]

er, pen.

[cimness.livejournal.com]

no, i'm totally with you on tezuryo porn - i mean, it's an interesting problem, and it can't just be regular, casual porn. i don't think that it's really impossible, but i realised last night as i was getting to the sex scene in tezuka's point of view that i can't see a first-time sex scene being graphic in his point of view ever. and i probably could never buy the word "cock" or anything similar at all, so that would maybe make the "porn" label a misnomer, but i do think if it were set in an established relationship it could probably still be nc-17. just... it would be tough.

aöslkdfjöa now i want to get on ym and talk to you about this instead of doing my cleaning.

AND ALSO ABOUT HOW THEY CONVEY BEING IN LOVE BY STARING. öalksfdöldask look at tezuka's stare of love in my icon and he's not even looking at ryoma, he's just THINKING about him. aöslkdfaöskldf. god.

um, but - i think it could go more graphic from ryoma's point of view (although i'm still not convinced about "cock". it's just too... yeah).

so this is why what i wrote ended up being completely made of metaphors and aja actually made me cut out the words "ribs" and "thighs" because they were too anatomically accurate (although i really had to insist on keeping "hips" and "back" for the sake of clarity).

[kessie.livejournal.com]

jdhjdh Okay, I will be back to respond to these later, but, uh, must finish cleaning and then shower, and then run for the nearest notebook. *_*

[cimness.livejournal.com]

notebook! pen! *vibrates with excitement*

[kessie.livejournal.com]

Um. Up for a read through? *innocent look*

...not done rambling apparently

[cimness.livejournal.com]

but the fact that it's problematic is what makes the proposition of graphic sex scenes about them (i'd better stop saying 'porn' since it implies more crassness or whatever than i really mean) so interesting to me.

i mean, the main problem with sex scenes a lot of the time is that they're fairly boring or expected or there's nothing really for them to establish. aja said something about how fascinating it would be for them because it would have to inevitably be all about character development. obviously it's only inevitable if it's done well.

perhaps it's partly because they both seem like such private people that it seems hard to narrate it; it seems like they're talking about it, even to a third party. so could you break through that with framing, or by using first or second person, or something? is it just because they're so ... metaphorical and lofty and idealistic that whenever they talk about their love they talk about wings and flames and trains and flying and souls and hearts and sunlight?