staying up all night

...no. i'm not really staying up all night. i meant to beta for my k'sal tonight and start trying to fix the stuff wrong with the domlij i keep teasing about per her suggestions, but then a number of things happened. tried to read femme, got sidetracked to stupid mothafucka page that wouldn't load properly in netscape with the letters all overlapping each other and shit. decided to kill netscape. surfed about browsers. downloaded opera, discarded it because it was visually unappealing. downloaded ie6. spent a long time fixing up the preferences. and now... everything is shiny and new! the fonts show up differently, there are these little underlines that appear only when you hover over a link... it's just very, utterly spiffalicious. i can't believe i'm so excited about a new download of free software that i could've had at any point over the past few years. *shakes head* --isn't there a way to put a skin on ie? and if so, how?

also, my stomach's turning inside-out with hunger just now, but i can't eat (on a wild guess)(made on the basis of, you know, past experience). the return of the evil appetite problems. i can keep my temper--and my current weight--for sixteen more days (until i go home), can't i?

[edit: um. just reread ramblings. hahaha. therefore:]
( ramblings about spanish/translation )

gross things right before bed #1, 359, 652:

the chalky taste of unripe pear.

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wow. i slept... ten hours. *blink* i have to get dressed pretty quickly now if i want to eat breakfast before the cafeteria closes for lunch. wow, funny dream. ow. my neck is all stiff. remind me not to sleep that long in future.

what was i going to do today?

i'm pretty sure there was something i was going to do today other than sit here tapping my fingers and waiting for someone to show up to talk to--maybe i should call my parents. i could make a set of mood icons, but i'm discovering i kind of like the emoticons. could learn how to make browser skins and make one that matches my desktop. and i was going to do the beta stuff, of course. but i'm sure there was something else other than that. bleh. i have checks to deposit. but i don't want to go outside.

i love this icon SO MUCH. i want to be uhura. she's not a boring secondary character, goddammit. there's so much fascinating stuff going on inside her head, i'm sure of it.
(the uhura pov story i wrote last semester. humor. sulu/chekov slash.) maybe i'll write some more, although wildcat has sort of cornered the uhura pov market with her het. i don't see uhura quite that way, though i like hers, of course.

i want to buy cds. keep me away from amazon.com.

[edit: this browser skinning thing is really funny. it makes these new ads pop up in a little scroll bar depending on what website you go to. it's all about free porn when i go to my fiction site. um. ahaha.]

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"As you can imagine, it is pretty uncomfortable to have worms clinging to your rectum."
-Prof. Temeles, discussing parasites in Bio 18

terror of the real world

i think i may force myself to write original fic next. when i get home this summer. just sit down and do it. let it suck if it must. submit it somewhere. my daddy will be there to pat my head. once i take the step once it can never be as hard again, correct? hm. *worryworry* but, ok. i have no motivation for anything but writing, and maybe it scares the shit out of me, but i obviously need to try it. i have this evil little part of me that argues quite eloquently (even without the assistance of my scrumptious) that i don't WANT to write anything but fanfic and how can you write what you don't want? but obviously, i CAN write it, and not wanting to is the barrier. the solution, obviously, is to want to. i think i'm headed in that direction. if i can manage it. yes.

i'm going out to see little not-cousin in oliver with tne contradance not-aunt in two hours, so i really need to eat dinner and get dressed. there's also the possibility of dancing later on, though i feel a bit bleary still from my excessive quantities of sleep. and winamp's being a bitch. *sigh*

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tried and failed twice in a row to go to dinner. slept half an hour instead. wtf? i slept ten hours last night. how is it that i am tired? then went. consumed kung pao chicken, toast with too much butter, and frosted flakes. now have more of The Perfect Desert, ie raspberry froz yogurt/chocolate sprinkles/golden grahams. [note to stomach: behave OR ELSE.]