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worked all morning again, acquired many papercuts. am working on father's day present. the contractors who are never here... are here! and they've cut a hole in the ceiling. the whole hall is full of dust, and so is my room.

YAY!

*sneeze*

at my suggestion,

my mom made cheddar tomato basil soup for lunch and it was SO good.

it was very good but not as good as this salsa.

( pico de gallo norteño )

computer candy

my best friend--who is, as goes without saying, da man--came over to install pirated windows xp, word xp, and a whole suite of norton goodies on my poor little computer. when we ran the norton windows-fixer, it detected almost 800 errors right off the bat.

"cim," said this exemplary person, "your computer is a piece of shit."

"to be fair," i replied, "i think the escape key and the tab key not working are my own fault..."

so THEN we started word, and? the downloaded fonts i've been saving for-fucking-ever actually worked. i now have new fonts! my joy is. unimaginable. yes. i squealed and embraced her sideways over the arms of the futon and desk chair. she patted my arm, though her arm was trapped, in a very "yes, dear" sort of way.

did i mention that

i have fonts? well... i do.

kwirbx, i'm going to be making images with them soon, and then i'm going to want to monopolize your attention for a bit of coding (angelic smile).

in the meanwhile i update from my family's saurian computer with its dusty old win98, because we have yet to download a new modem driver to transfer and so my computer can't find its modem (my computer and i have a deeply unhealthy relationship as evinced by how much i adore it despite its utter undeservingness and constant betrayal. would you believe i just find this new lack charming? i envision it fumbling around in the darkness on the nighttable, "i knew it was here somewhere...").

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parents want to have movie marathon tonight and i said yes but am actually too tired. i want to go to bed right now, only i still have to have dinner. maybe i'll give writing a try for a little while, but i'd definitely fall asleep in the movie.

the other day shadowleopard said that qui/obi was the best pairing ever, which got me thinking about the whole one true pairing concept. i've had several, i'd think, only then if you've had more than one that kind of defeats it all. but i remember discussing it with caraloup earlier, and that she was writing just one pairing for years and years, and i honestly can't comprehend that. as much as i like timbertrick, for instance, i don't want to write two of it in a row. kirk/spock and qui/obi are both richer in possibilities in all kinds of ways (any sf pairing would be, but we're speaking only of the ones i particularly like, of course), but i think my affection for timbertrick may be greater. still, i get tired of it, and no matter how much i like lotrips to read i find i don't want to write more than one story in any one pairing. domlijah has lost its attraction for me, and so has dom/billy. i'll still read viggorli, but i can't even conceive of writing it again.

the fact is, i don't want to take a little corner of the possible fictional universes i could create and explore it thoroughly. i don't want to look at one pairing from every possible angle, put them in a lot of different situations--i just don't. i don't mind reading what other people have done on those lines, and cara never had any trouble holding my attention with her excellent han/luke even though the pairing seemed ludicrous to me when i first thought of it.

i wonder if it indicates something fundamental about writers? i don't dislike exploring, but i like to explore more widely. every time i do something, i want to strike out in a new direction, lately. i don't want to write the same point of view twice in a row or the same gimmick (a la tense shifts and pov shifts and timeline shifts in burn and tennessee) twice in a row or the same theme twice in a row. the themes may even be the most closely related things, if you look at what i write in chronological order. i'm not even certain if there's a connection there.