cimorene

okay, so i had a dream that was mostly, anyway, back in high school. and we were taking the equivalent of an SAT test that was long and on-going and i'd missed about half of it by skipping all my classes first semester. and the whole school was divided (randomly?) into 'teams' with leaders and assistants in a way that reminded me of summer camp, and even though it was supposed to be an intelligence test, they were mostly gauging it with writing--they'd say 'recent memories' and then give you a lot of words and you had to write a paragraph (?) that you associated with it, and then there was a performance part everyone else had been rehearsing for, where you could give a presentation but most everyone was just singing, and i finally realized i could recite poetry, only i couldn't remember the words to neruda's "juegas todos los días," so i was going to have to recite "jabberwocky."

and meanwhile i didn't know what team i was on and assistants, when i asked questions, kept giving me these utterly scathing looks, until i finally found a team-leader who was intrigued by the thought of having someone who would have to write 'N' for all the things i had missed. 'diana says it's because you haven't been here since september,' she said, and then diana (a friend from 8th grade and graduating gold-award member of my girl scout troop) showed up to say she had called and left me a message over the break and why hadn't i called her? and i had to lie.

and then we heard people performing, including the black boy who was my boyfriend in first grade and later the star of the school chorus and widely-known for being eccentric, singing christina aguilera's favorite, 'at last.' i was extremely critical that he couldn't do it as well as